HelpLess...

i m overwhelmed by the nagging..the choices...the confusion...
with such a sucking results of me, i think i should just stop daydreaming of something better..just go to what i got...lol...life is full of unknown..who knows what will happen next? i have been rejected and rejected...and my heart is broken..i was disheartened..i just know that how cruel is this world..this community..this socioeconomic system...
i did cry..i did regret...but everything is just beyond my control..May god bless everyone...


what i really afraid ...i gotta adapt the new environment..
i cant imagine..i m gonna live without friends and family there...
the college life is unlike with the national service life..during ns life..everything of us..is under the arrangement of teachers...and..now the college life could be totally different..i m kinda people who really dont know how to get along with stranger..i m kinda stressed...i afraid i might be the one who is boycotted.. argh.lalala...reali hope i will be able to get in matriks...emm..my pa suddenly asked me to give up aimst...which was once my first choice to continue my study..everything is just unpredictable..i was once so wanted to go spore polytechnic.. now i looked back...it might not be the best option for me...emm... i was really naive...