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11-10-09

Happy Day + Sad day

Starting to be emotional again when being alone.

Think a lot about the past, present and future.

I am helpless. I am speechless.

I am a weirdo.

I am a freak.

Perhaps I am not treasured.

I never get satisfied.

But who cared?

People will not understand me how I feel.

I don’t know how to tell. I just don’t know how to share.

I am in a cage.

With minimum freedom.

I have to think twice.

I have doubt on everything.

But I refused to ask.

I am shy to ask. I am too proud to lose.

But sooner or later I will find the truth.

I know I will.

It’s the matter of time.

I just want to wait.

I don’t want to be the one who take the initiative at the very first.

I don’t want to be the fool again.

I don’t want to be like who I used to be before.

I want to transform.

I know it’s hard.

Perhaps I will never succeed.

Perhaps I will just give up even though I am still far from the goals.

I hate me myself.

I hate to be like this anymore.

Who can understand me?

Perhaps in this world. Only you can understand.

You are me.

I can understand everything you did and you said.

You don’t have to tell me.

And I just understand it.

The very first time I have this kind of feeling.

Without saying much, I know you, but I doubt, do you know me?

Don’t be afraid and just keep the faith.

No one knows what will happen next.

Perhaps the world doom in the next second.

God knows.

I don’t know what to do sometimes.

I am trying to figure it out.

Sometimes I feel like to lose my temper and throw tantrum as I like.

But people here are not the same anymore.

They don’t know you.

They don’t know why you are acting like this.

People just simply misjudge you.

Something happened made me feel bloody moody.

I try to keep it in my heart.

People may not want to listen what you said.

People might be bored by what you said.

I seriously think that no one is willing to listen it.REALLY.

Speak wise.

That’s what I really don’t have.

I never think before I talk.

I don’t want to be hypocrite.

I just speak out what I really feel inside.

In fact, people who don’t understand me will misunderstand it.

I am tired of it.

P/s: People out there. Mind your words please. If I really dulan with what you said from your sucking mouth, please stop it K? YOU ARE BLOODY FREAKING ME OUT!!

ASSHOLE!!