loving you

i miss your voices..how i wish micky was also on the stage..
and why changmin and u know did not attend..
what's wrong with our dongbang boys?

doubting

so vague.

so blur.

i dont know what are you trying to show.

i am afraid.

i am scared.

i refuse to do so.

i refuse to tell.

i afraid to get hurt.

i so scared to be the one.

who is doubtful, and misunderstand what you tried to express.

i am living in horror.

i afraid.

many possibilities.

u might choose any options.

but jz hope that u can choose the one i hope.

perhaps.

i am just a passer-by

and she is the one

good day...good night

11-10-09

Happy Day + Sad day

Starting to be emotional again when being alone.

Think a lot about the past, present and future.

I am helpless. I am speechless.

I am a weirdo.

I am a freak.

Perhaps I am not treasured.

I never get satisfied.

But who cared?

People will not understand me how I feel.

I don’t know how to tell. I just don’t know how to share.

I am in a cage.

With minimum freedom.

I have to think twice.

I have doubt on everything.

But I refused to ask.

I am shy to ask. I am too proud to lose.

But sooner or later I will find the truth.

I know I will.

It’s the matter of time.

I just want to wait.

I don’t want to be the one who take the initiative at the very first.

I don’t want to be the fool again.

I don’t want to be like who I used to be before.

I want to transform.

I know it’s hard.

Perhaps I will never succeed.

Perhaps I will just give up even though I am still far from the goals.

I hate me myself.

I hate to be like this anymore.

Who can understand me?

Perhaps in this world. Only you can understand.

You are me.

I can understand everything you did and you said.

You don’t have to tell me.

And I just understand it.

The very first time I have this kind of feeling.

Without saying much, I know you, but I doubt, do you know me?

Don’t be afraid and just keep the faith.

No one knows what will happen next.

Perhaps the world doom in the next second.

God knows.

I don’t know what to do sometimes.

I am trying to figure it out.

Sometimes I feel like to lose my temper and throw tantrum as I like.

But people here are not the same anymore.

They don’t know you.

They don’t know why you are acting like this.

People just simply misjudge you.

Something happened made me feel bloody moody.

I try to keep it in my heart.

People may not want to listen what you said.

People might be bored by what you said.

I seriously think that no one is willing to listen it.REALLY.

Speak wise.

That’s what I really don’t have.

I never think before I talk.

I don’t want to be hypocrite.

I just speak out what I really feel inside.

In fact, people who don’t understand me will misunderstand it.

I am tired of it.

P/s: People out there. Mind your words please. If I really dulan with what you said from your sucking mouth, please stop it K? YOU ARE BLOODY FREAKING ME OUT!!

ASSHOLE!!

Watching Oppa’s videos again and again
From Hug to Rising Sun
From O Jeong Ban Hap to Purple Line
From Mirotic to Bolero…
My tears are rolling inside my eyes...
From the immature teens
From the timid little boys
Oppas have now transformed to the SUPERSTARS
The SUPERSTARS not only in Korea
But WORLDWIDELY.

The Lawsuit Case made all Cassiopeias living in horrors..
We are so afraid OPPAS will decide to disband at last
The fears…
I don’t know how to describe it in words..
But OPPAS said you guys will never disband…
We take it in our hearts…
We believe that OPPAs will do what you promised…

Recently
Seeing Yunho Oppa carrying out a lot of activities on his own...
With the ARA
Besides
Yoochun Oppa and Hero Oppa released their own single album
Congrats to them that COLOR, Melody and Harmony hit the top of the ORICON
Changmin Oppa is busying on shooting of his very first drama..
Xiah Oppa ..No News about him..
Perhaps he is having holiday right now
OPPAs, I prefer TVXQ with 5 members..
I don’t like you guys busy with your own solo…
I don’t want TVXQ to be like this..
Where is the teamwork you guys used to have?
Why don’t Yunho and Changmin Oppa joined others to sue SM?
Why?
A lot of question marks in my head..
No one is gonna answer me..
No one is able to answer me..
Oppas, I hope you guys can show up and explain everything to the Cassiopeias..
We are on the hot plate..
And like a stupid fellow searching your information crazily on the net…


Cassiopeias are afraid now
Afraid to lose you guys, OPPAS…
We are one family OPPAs…
We will never give you up….
Hwaiting!!

I am still waiting for the chance to attend your concert..
I don’t wish that the one I missed will be the last one…
I am gonna be so regret…OPPAS,Keep the faith….
I Will Keep the Faith!!

jz heard dat they jz had mirotic concert at shanghai...
GAMBATEH